that morrissey song about getting what i want.

(…or how i spent christmas)

i should get a reward for having the most entries written in a post-xmas day. yeah, for once in my life, i’m being constructive. isn’t that something!?i have simply so much time to kill and so many thoughts to pour. i need some discreet therapy to get moving but whatever.

christmas was spent with my relatives, my aunt’s to be specific. went to mass at around 9PM then had noche buena with my cousins afterwards. had a talk with a ghost from the past(with much begging as if it was a matter of life and death) and a melodrama ensued. after much pleading from my side, she said things can never be healed as it is and what’s done is done. after i put down the phone i remembered a quote from a book i read a long time ago by milan kundera. “ permanently protuber­ant, its inanity irreparable“, at this point i could care less about philosophy and eternal recurrence but i am too horrified at the prospect of redundant failures.

so the promise of flooding beer like a manna from heaven was the buzzword earlier that night by neighbors. but i was too depressed to mingle and instead took a few shots and then went straight to slumberland while the customised boombox was blaring outside.

im hoping next year will be better. happy bday papa jesus.